My Story

I’ve never been a “traditional” gal. I’ve never been formally educated. All of my talents came from a deep place. A place where one would think they had no power. Beauty has always given me comfort and a feeling of serenity even in the midst of a tornado of drug addiction and complete insanity.

My mother wasn’t bad. She desired to give me everything. She suffered from the disease of drug addiction which created turbulence and chaos for me growing up. She could not comfort me, even if she tried. Deep within myself God, Higher Power, and a Divine Intelligence propelled me to design.

A glimpse into my childhood home was a mother who hoarded anything she could. Stereos, clothes, televisions and furniture all taken apart. She would attempt to fix what she had taken apart to no avail. Music deafening, television blaring. As I child I feared for my mother every second of my childhood.

Nothing was what you would call “normal.” Nothing was in my control. Everything was held hostage by a drug called methamphetamine which my mother was addicted to. 

Going to school as a child, looking back, I can laugh at my attempts at it. Due to the fear and chaos consuming my life I was admitted to special  needs classes. I was stricken with anxiety. 

My story of creation came from finding a place within myself and calling on gods help. Children are born so faithful. I thank god for gifting me an imagination to divert my attention from the mayhem that was going on in my life.

I was never moved by the normal things young girls would be moved by. Florals and pinks never stimulated my imagination. However, I always loved things in their place. I could count on things staying in their place. This gave me comfort. I started arranging my little space I had in our tiny apartment. 

I was around seven years old when I started walking to the local Pic ‘N’ Save store. I would save up the little money I had earned and add to my little creation in my space in my mothers apartment. 

Creating designs, re arranging my safe spot and the action of walking to that Pic ‘N’ Save sparked my imagination. Doing this gave me power and purpose. 

I still connect to that seven year old girl walking to that store. Finding, designing and creating a space of comfort and deeper beauty.